Tag: tiny shards of light in a bleak and unforgiving universe

  • oft evil will doth evil mar

    I haven’t been updating this blog lately. There’s a very simple reason why: I haven’t been writing lately. I’ve been utterly overwhelmed with everything that’s been going on in the world lately, and especially here in the United States. I know that my country hasn’t always been the shining beacon of goodness and democracy that it has claimed to be, but I do think that overall, America has tried to do the right thing for the world, even when that has been misguided or just plain wrong. To see the events in Minneapolis recently, alongside the threat of a pointless war with Europe and the crumbling of eighty years of the post World War II world order, has been almost more than I can handle. Everything sucks these days, and for all the last month, I haven’t been able to work on anything except in the most desultory manner.

    But in times of trouble, like many people, I take comfort in my holy book. For me, that is probably Lord of the Rings.

    Yeah, it’s a cliche to say that I encountered Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit and had my entire personality and worldview changed. I’m not the only one. Be glad that it was Tolkien that triggered my writing obsession, not Robert Heinlein or Ayn Rand.

    If there are any lessons to be taken from Lord of the Rings, it’s that anyone, even the smallest among us, has the ability to change the world, and that no one, not even the most wretched among us, is beyond “pity”, as Tolkien put it, or empathy, as I would more likely phrase it. But that’s not what gives me comfort in this moment. No, it’s the chapter where the Isengard orcs kidnap Merry and Pippin in order to, as the meme says, “take the hobbits to Isengard”.

    The reason why Merry and Pippin are able to escape the orcs isn’t because they overpower them with strength of arms. It’s because the orcs kill each other. The orcs are composed of three different groups striving for dominance: the warrior Uruk-Hai, the orcs of Mordor, and the goblins of the Misty Mountains. The squabbling and posturing between them eventually leads to a massacre, because that’s what always happens among evil people. They will always destroy each other through the force of their own hatred and stupidity.

    The only way you can get evil people to work on a unified goal is when someone even stronger and more evil forces them to submit to their will. And, fortunately, the man who is the eye of the storm of darkness consuming my country is not strong. He is a fat, demented slug of a man, a lazy narcissistic coastal elite who, for some reason, has managed to grift millions into thinking he’s a working-class hero, with no interests or desires aside from satisfying his own vanity and enriching himself. And you just have to look at him – the softness in his body, the deadness in his eyes – to know that he’s not long for this world. Once he’s gone, who do you think can wield the kind of strength and cruelty that can keep his minions in line? J.D. Vance? Kristi Noem? Stephen Miller?

    For people who claim to be Christians, the current government clearly hasn’t learned the gospels’ warning re: houses built on foundations of sand. Only in this case, they’ve built their empire on a foundation of fat, saggy flesh, piloted by a brain that is just a couple Filet-O-Fishes away from a hemorrhage so powerful it could kill God. The greatest enemy of evil is evil.

    I’ll finish with the following quote by Tolkien himself, from “On Fairy Stories”:

    In what the misusers of Escape are fond of calling Real Life, escape is evidently as a rule practical, and may even be heroic. In real life it is difficult to blame it, unless it fails; in criticism it would seem to be the worse the better it succeeds […] Why should a man be scorned if, finding himself in prison, he tries to get out and go home? Or if, when he cannot do so, he thinks and talks about other topics than jailers and prison-walls? The world outside has not become less real because the prisoner cannot see it. In using Escape in this way the critics have chosen the wrong word, and what is more, they are confusing, not always by sincere error, the Escape of the Prisoner with the Flight of the Deserter. Just so a Party-spokesman might have labeled departure from the Führer’s and any other Reich and even criticism of it as treachery […] Not only do they confound the escape of the prisoner with the flight of the deserter, but they would seem to prefer the acquiescence of the ‘quisling’ to the resistance of the patriot. To such thinking you have only to say ‘the land you loved is doomed’ to excuse any treachery, indeed to glorify it.

    It is our duty to resist. It is our duty to love. It is our duty to dream of other, better worlds, no matter how many orcs or balrogs or Nazgûl stand against us.

    Besides, all things are temporary. This will end. We will remain.

    ~ Ian (listening to the soundtrack to O Brother, Where Art Thou?)

  • CHOO CHOO MOTHERLOVERS

    It was a huge day for transit nerds in Seattle this Saturday! Well, not in Seattle specifically, but the wild border country between the airport and Tacoma. Yes, as an early Christmas present, the Federal Way Link Light Rail extension opened, and since I had the day off, I spent the afternoon riding it!

    I began at the light rail station near my home, U District Station. Immediately upon entering, something was different. Instead of saying “Angle Lake” as the terminus for the southbound line, the transit signage said “Federal Way”.

    Even knowing that the signs would change, it was kind of a shock to see. I’ve lived in Seattle for nearly a decade, and seeing anything other than “Angle Lake” was a little startling, in a pleasant way.

    After passing through downtown Seattle, Rainier Valley, and the airport, I got to see the new section of track and the new stations for the first time!

    Speeding past cars on I-5.
    Kent De Moines Station.
    Star Lake Station.

    Then, after a scenic trip past interstate highways, RV parks, and patches of bog surrounded by damp hemlock trees, I arrived at the terminus of my journey in the exotic southern climes of distant Federal Way!

    Since I had come all this way, I spent a pleasant time shopping at Federal Way’s premier bookstore, a combination bookstore/cafe called Barnes and… something? Barnes and Mobile? Not sure what mobile phones have to do with books, but it had a pretty good selection!

    After shopping and getting a li’l soupçon of writing done, it was 4:30, well past nightfall, and time to head home. Overall, an excellent excursion! If ever you are forced to be in Federal Way, the Link is an excellent way of getting there. And I’ll be able to take it all the way to Tacoma someday! Hopefully before I’m 50, but you never know in this town…

    Goodnight, Federal Way and all of South King County! I probably won’t ever visit you again for years, but it was nice while I did!

    ~ Ian (listening to Strega by SubRosa)

  • i like to be here when i can

    I was just down in California last week, visiting family and friends for the traditional autumnal bird consumption ritual festival. It’s always a little weird going to California for me. I spent years being miserable there, trying to get out. I’m surprised how much I enjoy it, although that’s probably just because that’s where my family lives, as well as most of my friends.

    The story of my moving to Seattle basically boils down to “I wanted to move here, so I did”. What I didn’t know is how quickly it would become my home. Seattle felt like home to me within six months, something that never entirely happened in my hometown. I feel a kinship with this place, despite its flaws, and whenever I return here, no matter how fun the trip was, I always feel a sense of unclenching, of being in a place where I belong.

    This begins as soon as I get off the plane for one reason: fonts.

    This was the view as I left my plane from San Jose at SeaTac Airport. The font on the sign up there is called Humnst 777. All the signage in the airport is in that font, which isn’t unusual, since all airports have some manner of unified typography. But the use of this font continues once you leave the airport and get onto the Link light rail. All the station signage is in this same font. So are the signs in bus stations across King County. In fact, I’d argue that this font is as much a symbol of Seattle and the larger Puget Sound as the Space Needle, Starbucks, and annoying tourists who refuse to drink any beer that doesn’t have enough hops in it to turn it green.

    It’s funny how we create these signifiers of home within our minds. Maybe someone who doesn’t ride the Link every day like I do wouldn’t have such associations with this font. But for me, it’s just a reminder of the human element of good design.

    ~ Ian (listening to I Heard It’s A Mess There Too by Aesop Rock)

  • Desert Bus!

    Every year, I look forward to the second week of November because of one amazing thing: Desert Bus For Hope. This event, put on by Canadian streamers and sketch comedians LoadingReadyRun, is a tiny fragment of joy in a dark, cruel world, and it’s one of my favorite things in the world. The gist of it is that a team of funny internet people play the most boring video game ever made for a whole week in order to raise money for children in hospitals and domestic violence shelters.

    I could explain how the event works and why it’s so special, but honestly, the About page on the Desert Bus website describes it far better than I ever could:

    Started in 2007 by internet sketch comedy group LoadingReadyRun, Desert Bus for Hope combines video games and tedium to benefit charity.

    Desert Bus is the world’s longest running internet-based fundraiser and has raised more than $10 million for Child’s Play over its eighteen-year history.

    What started as an impromptu event broadcast from a living room is now a professionally organized fundraiser; it takes more than 13 people to plan the event and another 55 dedicated volunteers to keep the whole thing running once it starts.

    Our viewers direct the action, talking with us via live chat, challenging us to sing, dance and generally make fools of ourselves in front of thousands of viewers. The Desert Bus Craft-Along allows people from all over the world to help us raise money by donating incredible handmade art and goods for auction.

    Desert Bus is a great example of what happens when a huge community of people from all over the world – organizers, volunteers, crafters, sponsors, and viewers – come together to achieve a common goal.

    Desert Bus the Game

    Desert Bus is a mini-game from the never-released Sega CD game Penn & Teller’s Smoke and Mirrors. Challenging the player to drive a listing, unreliable, virtual bus on an endless, eight-hour-long strip of highway between Tucson, Arizona, and Las Vegas, Nevada, it is widely regarded to be the worst video game ever made.

    We play it for as long as donations come in. In order to keep things interesting for our viewers we have live and silent auctions, giveaways and contests, celebrity guests, and a lot of silliness.

    Child’s Play – What is Child’s Play?

    Child’s Play is a registered charity dedicated to improving the lives of children undergoing treatment in the hospital with toys and games. The charity supports a network of over 180 hospitals worldwide.

    Child’s Play also supports domestic violence support facilities and aims to provide opportunities for positive engagement, distraction, and play for children in domestic violence shelters and advocacy centres.

    Personally, I’ve been watching Desert Bus since 2012, when I was in college. In fact, while I was taking a class in computer graphics, I made this image as as assignment:

    As far as an image made by a twenty-year-old amateur taking a breadth requirement class, I think it’s not too shabby, Alonso! And it shows that my love for this deeply strange event, which has grown like a beautiful pearl around the annoying piece of grit that is one of the world’s worst video games.

    If you want to check the stream out and join in the fun, go to desertbus.org! And if you want to chip in with a li’l bit of financial support, I would appreciate it muchly. These are dark times, after all, and if we can provide just a little bit of kindness to children in need, it’ll make the world a little lighter.